These past few days has been so challenging for me–I was so negative, so down, and envious. I kept on comparing myself with others for all the things I felt I didn’t get. Just then I realized that this is me, and living a life of envy and enmity is a futile endeavor. Then I moved forward and chose to be happy.
We all certainly come into a point when we ask ourselves why he has this, I don’t. Why is he like this, I’m not? Why did he get this, I didn’t? Why does he love him, I wasn’t? … and the list comes in several sheets should we want to. The society we live in programmed us to think that way. The culture taught us that money, beauty, fame, among others are essential to survival–and without which we’ll be extinct in the evolutionary process. Yet, we have the freedom to choose our calling.
Sometimes, I choose to feel it then I choose to move on. Sometimes, it just come unexpectedly but I choose to be the captain of my ship again, else nowhere will I go.
I lose him. I should never envy the person I lost him to. I know he’s happy…so should I be. I may not have what it takes for him to love me, but someone along the way will love me for who I am. Nonetheless, until then I’m telling myself to envy no more… and live life as precious and fulfilling as we should all be.
In Response to the Daily Prompt: Envy